Hubby, I am sad that you are so down and need a lift. I know from past posts that you were coping better. In case you haven't done so already, have you spoken to your internist a counselor or your wife's movement disorder neurologist for advice? PD is a brutal disease for both the PwP and the caregivers. I emphasize with you. Please keep in touch with us. We care about you. Best, Marc M., Moderator, ParkinsonsDisease.Net