EARLY ONSET PARKINSONS

I was diagnosed in my 40’s with Parkinsonism. Now 10 years later my tremors have worsen and having memory issues. I still walk by myself and get around alone. I have pain and stiffness in my legs and pain all over my body. The neurologist started me on levodpa< and mirages years ago. I am no longer on medicine and currently not seeing a doctor. Does anybody have any ideas for me. I don’t know where this is leading me. Very lost with depression that I haven’t felt this bad in along time. I am no longer intimate with my partner and has put a strain on relationship. I just don’t think they know what I am going through.