Question about Carbidopa/Levodopa

I'm 42 years old and I was diagnosed with juvenile Parkinson's disease at 20. I went to a clinic finally years after my first symptom at age 12 when my left foot got stuck downward. I sat down and relaxed then continued forward without saying a word to anybody. I experienced this from time to time and over time my issue progressed. Mornings were better than nights but on a daily basis my movement became unnatural. It was like I literally had to think about my every step. I would trip over my own feet, shake and struggled with things you normally shouldn't. My life choices might not have been nutritional or beneficial for my well being but they weren't that bad to be in the state I was in. When I was introduced to this medication I felt better! I had a good run but about a year and a half ago I fell hard and couldn't get up. This drug is not only potent but also complex. If I knew then about dopamine I probably would have asked for it in a different form before diving into medication. I took on this journey head first alone but now find myself desperately seeking help. I've done tests and it seems like I do actually have PD. In my delayed search of a proper diagnose I've done a skin biopsy, Dat scan and a couple other brain scans in order to try to find a balance between my mind and body to continue forward. I'm alone and too far from my children and only want to get back to the world and out of this dark place I'm in. The introduction of carbidopa/levodopa into my life has seemed to be a blessing and a curse. Wondering if there's anybody out there who can relate? A boy who became a man through confused suffering and drugs titled as medicine that hopefully proceeds to relieve my ailment and keep me grounded for many more years to come.