So afraid falling will get worse

Hi everyone, my name is Rich and I am so afraid my falling will get even worse, I fall at least 1-2 times a week. However I have not fallen in a little over two weeks.

I am brand new to this forum and about four months since I was diagnosed with PD. I’m 55 years old and I have a bunch of symptoms from tremors to shaking in bed. I’m now in a wheelchair whenever I go out with my wife. I feel like a burden to my wife, my neurologist told me PD never gets better only worse. I can actually remember my first symptom, it was the tremors in my left hand. I didn’t think anything of it until I told my neurologist and she said “ it’s PD keep an eye on it." I have progressed rapidly I will list the symptoms in another post.

My wife is an angel, she is so supportive and I’m truly grateful I have her. I can drive with absolutely no problems, as a matter of fact the tremors stop completely. I can’t even read my own hand writing it’s so small. Since I’ve been diagnosed when I fall its over, unless there are people around I cannot get up. I feel so broken, I am now wearing a medical alert necklace when I fall because I'm alone with my dogs 🐶 a lot. My wife works 10 hr days. I am doing PT, but in my opinion, it is doing absolutely nothing for me, I'm just spinning my wheels.

I am already told that PD is going to affect my quality of life. It's going to rob me of my independence and I am not ready for this at all. I don't sleep, I stare at the ceiling up until 4 am. Anyway I apologize for the long post, I just want to fit in here.

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